Ok, So.. before I start, I need to get something straight... I love my friends, dearly! I would go to the gates of hell and back for most of them... I would happily serve my head up on a plate for them.. (I'm not sure whats with all the Placebo lyrics right now)
But, Love.... conventional love? ''the one person for everyone'' that soooo many people are so busy looking for...I'm starting to believe its shit.
For a start, there are billions of people in the world... so why should there be just one for everyone? Its crap.. sorry for those of you who have found your supposed 'one'... but it is!
I personally believe that love does not, in the conventional sense, exist. I think there are hundreds of possible partners for everyone out there... I use the word 'partners' because that's all it is!
I believe we are all capable of making a connection to a person for an amount of time... and sometimes that period of time is longer than others, but truly.. that's all it is, just a connection. Its based on some link or bond you may have... but inevitably, all that happens is that eventually the 'connection' will no longer be enough for one of the people involved.
Which means the other person will just end up hurt and broken, wondering what went wrong, how they screwed up, how they could have fixed things.
But is it love? hell no... love is something we tell ourselves we have, tell ourselves means something, to keep us from laying in the dark at night, scared we will grow old and die alone. Love is the dependency we create on the connections we make.
We allow ourselves to be slaves to it, I know I have. I have hurt and in turn been hurt... far to many times. I have allowed myself to believe I am in love, and I have allowed it to ruin who I am, I have placed my faith in love and I have broken peoples faith also.
So why does everyone think that love is such a great thing? All I see it do, is send people crazy, make people prioritise those who would not do the same for them. It makes people forget their inner strength and attempt only to draw strength from those they have placed their faith in. How can this be right?
People say love is amazing, I think hell, its pain and suffering, nothing more.
So, Personally... I am done with it.... I am not saying I will never make another connection. I am saying I will not, ever, allow my connections to last long enough to sucker me into ''developing feelings''
I don't believe in love, I believe in happiness... and I believe that every connection I make, should be brief.. however fun, happy...
A great man once said ''Its better to burn out, that to fade away'' he was, sadly talking about life... I think its a great philosophy to apply to 'love!
Very pessimistic. Likely because of your current situation. But still, VERY pessimistic.
ReplyDeleteI was in love once. Well, twice. Two different people and both for about 18 months each.
The first, fucking sucked. She didn't feel the same and at the time, I likely would have agreed with this.
However, the next girl felt the same. And with her I had the best 18 months of my fucking life. I would have done literally ANYTHING for that girl. And you know what I think? Love is, and was real, just as anger, fear and sadness are. Someone once told me "Love is the combination of every human emotion, which is what makes it so unbearable." Those words have never gotten out of my head, and I heard them over 5 years ago from a random guy I used to talk to in Texas.
If love was bullshit, why are there so many people writing songs about it? Why have so many people experienced it?
My grandparents love each other dearly have have done for 50 years.
I think modern society is just a really negative impact on love and relationships. Life is too easy now, so we strive on drama and things to keep life interesting.
I'ma stop ranting now. :P Good post. <3
Not so pessimistic.... i just have a pessimistic way of saying squeeze happiness out of what you can... but then get out of dodge before it just fades out! you know?
ReplyDeleteI will say, I agree about modern society being to blame... personally facebook and suchlike (and, yes, i know i use it) are nothing more than breeding grounds for suspicion, paranoia and they do nothing to aid a healthy relationship. No one respects the privacy in a relationship anymore.. and the world sits and watches to see your failures etc!
This does not give much hope for uture generations! :(