It didn't start that way, (ok, it wasn't all bad) but generally I didn't sleep to well, I SO didn't want to go to work and I felt crappy. However I managed to drag myself in. Several cup's of tea didn't help and the groggy feeling didn't pass - Until I was asked to destroy some furniture. This may well sound silly, but I basically spent my working day kicking, smashing and wrecking furniture which was seriously fun! On top of that I had to carry it all down 2 flights of stairs alone and I ran (yep, actually ran) back up those same steps every time I went up - So today has been a massive endorphin rush!
Getting home from work (after a cheeky desperado's or 2) I was in no mood to relax, so I decided I would take some stuff up to a friend. (Ok, finally getting toward the point of this blog - not that I know what said point is yet...)
As I left, it was warm, sunny and raining - I decided a jaunt through the woods and onto the beach was in order. Minutes later I found myself running again through the woods, up steps etc - I have NO idea where the hell all this energy came from, but right there, and then the rain poured - and it was amazing! There I was, walking along in the warm rain, music playing, smiling like a fool. Because life is not just beautiful - It's fucking stunning!
I have not had the best few months and lately, I have come to realise a couple of things, which firstly, do not really need to be discussed here, and secondly, have put me in a generally good mood. But today - and this evening have bought it all into focus, so very well! When it came to turn off to go home, I just carried on walking (and running some more - not the best shoes for it either, nearly slipped a few times), because in that very moment I was experiencing a moment of perfect happiness, no doubts, no worries, no confusion. And at the same time, I felt so inspired to write - I had so much to share with you, I have lost much of it now.
I realised the rain storm I was walking out of, was as beautiful (possibly even more so) than the sunset I was walking into.
I realised I am exactly where I am supposed to be, at this moment in time. I am grateful for the upset and pain I have suffered, because it has made me appreciate the beauty in things just that little bit more. I am surrounded with some truely amazing people. Its hard to believe I have known some of them as long as I have - Harder to believe I havn't known some for so much longer. And more-so I am glad I have made the effort to make amends to some that have been wronged and to have forgiven their wrongs, because it is stupid to let people leave over the small things ~ Nothing is Trivial!
I have so many plans - I have no idea how they will be financed, how I wil fit them in or any of the boring details, but I don't care - I'm going to stop and smell the fucking flowers! I have an amazing adventure in front of me, with amazing people. I'm excited - I'm truely happy, waking into the sunset or the rainstorm. I'm ready to jump of the ledge, anyone wanna take my hand???
