All right now!

I was just talking to a friend, about love and loss and pain and all that shit.
And I told her something, about my past experiences, i told her about this guy... no names, those who know me, and have known me, well.. they know who, those who don't, Well they don't need to. simply!
It was a hell of a long time ago and this is what I told my friend ''Loving him is the hardest thing I have ever done, getting over him damn near killed me''These points are both true, as is the second thing I told her, which was that over all the years, all the pain and the attempts to cause each other a lot of hurt, after all the things he put me through, after all the tears, all the times I wanted to die, and all the times i wanted to kill him.... This is my realisation 'That I quite simply do not hate him anymore, yet nor do I care anymore' I can finally say i hold him no ill will, I hope he is happy, i hope  his life is fulfilled, yet I never want to be a part of it. 


Sure enough, I have loved and lost and hurt and been hurt, but he was the one, y'know... the first love and all that shit, and when that person is constantly drifting inn and out of your life, its tough to have closure on it all, so the realisation that if i saw him in the street tomorrow, I would smile or nod an acknowledgement, but would want no further interaction from him. 
I'm not sure on my point here, apart from to say, we all have a lot of strength and sometimes we are unaware of just how much we have. But for all those people hurting, you should know, it gets easier... I am living proof... one day, you may even forgive them, I have, and I had a lot to forgive!